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Monday, July 11, 2011
> Random revelry in May and June



Because I've been wanting to post a decent update but am feeling too lazy, this point form entry will be a quick reminder as to how much things can happen in just 2 months. In 61 days, so much things, and feelings, can breed.

In these 61 days that spanned within May and June, I:

  • learned that if someone doesn't like you, everything, and I mean, everything, you say/do/have, will be a problem to them.
  • And referring to point #1, I have learned that I should remind myself for the millionth time, I just need.to.stop.caring. Although it's way easier said than done.
  • have been through days where I questioned my actions, but recent events have shown that if I've picked a path, then stick to it and give it my best. And things will work out. :)
  • am now a confirmed employee, and am very happy things are going well so far. Although there will be uncertain days ahead, I'll just need to keep staying positive.
  • turned a year older and am blessed for all the things my loved ones have done to commemorate my birthday. I'm still ok with the number '24', but I can foresee next year when May comes, I don't think I'll like 25 very much! Although they always say, age is just a number, I really don't think so!
  • feel like I have aged so much in just these 2 months! I have been through emotionally draining days but some good days too, which is a huge reminder to tell myself to cut all the drama and get on with my freakin' life. :p
  • felt like a crushed little girl being picked for the "reserved" team, no matter how close I was to being in the team. But guess God works in mysterious ways. Just need to work harder for the next time! :)
  • managed to squeeze in some indulgences in between busy schedule, which is just so good for the soul :)
  • And last but not least, would like to share a quote below which I've got stuck on a post-it-note at my workspace. On seemingly tougher days, I hope this will encourage you just as it has for me :)


"Think of every single thing that you "have to" do to get through a day, as things you "get to" do... before your turn is over."

Everything's a gift,
The Universe


I write a birthday entry every year just so I can remember my birthdays in future. It was a good celebration this year, with little holiday breaks in between. I loved that. I think I shall try to make it a point to be somewhere else every birthday from now on. :)
A bouquet of lilies and roses surprised me at my workplace, short breaks and celebration with loved ones

I've come to treasure our tradition of birthday eat-outs. Thanks for always making my birthdays special :)



I loved the impeccable details in Hard Rock Hotel; the branding details are something I could learn from. Gotta say though, my lack of knowledge on the music scene dampened the experience slightly but I had a crash course on that throughout my stay :)



Another birthday tradition which I cherish with childhood friends. Reminders that we are growing older, yet our childish ways never fail to make me laugh at how some things truly never change :) It's gonna be hard to forget this year's celebration; of wine and not taking medication when you're intoxicated, and not calling to check and arriving at a closed cafe. Ahh. Little memories.

Last year when I was jobless for a month, I took up an offer to teach for a children's Holiday Entrepreneurship Program at a learning centre, which proved to be one of the best decisions I've made. The centre's owner is a sweet American lady whom I've learned a great deal from. She was nice to invite me back for one of her modules as a judge for Best Dressed during an event.

Here are some of the kids in their costumes: (from L-R:) Joan of Arc, Goldilocks, Lady Macbeth and a pouting Count Dracula (he was going through the phase where girls had cooties and he shouldn't be standing next to one), Geppeto, Alice in Wonderland, and Little Red Riding Hood.


Shopping with the boyfriend and forcing him to try out clothes. Note to self: it's actually quite fun!




Besides volunteering in ministries, I never really had the chance to do CSR programmes at work for my clients previously. Am glad to be able to now at my current workplace. :)



Jason, my little cousin, turned 1. Maternal instincts kicking in although I know, I'm far from being ready to be a mum now. Hehe!


Because I like this picture, and because this picture shows my rounder face - proof that I have put on weight! *victoryyyy!*


Being undomesticated and utterly useless in the kitchen, the boyfriend bought me a book of soup recipes a few years ago. I marveled at the pictures, then kept the book untouched on my shelf. Now, 3 years later, he somehow tricked me into a deal: I have to try out a soup recipe and boil him a type of soup. Before I turn 24! Celaka. I knew I couldn't weasel my way out, so the above picture is the result: peanut soup with pork knuckle.

And I don't care if I sound like I'm blowing my own trumpet, but the soup was good ok? :p Matt loved it (he better not be pretending!). And urm... ok fine, I got some help from mum. XD

Oh, and I started baking a little too! :) Big improvement for someone as useless in the kitchen as me, I tell ya!



Went to the MPO to catch a violin orchestra, which turned out to be such an amusing and lovely night. Got upgraded seats too, much to my surprise! Tip: don't be too early, get into the hall just before the show starts. ;)



Matt got confirmed at work too, and I'm so jealous - they get a mortar board! Eeyer why so nice one? I want that too!


And there, my old boyfriend is also a year older now. Bordering 'uncle' age already! Haha! He'll kill me if he sees this but I wouldn't worry since he doesn't read this anyways :p



May & June saw plenty of food excursions; contributed to my weight! ;)

Dimsum treats for my parents - worth waking up early on a Saturday morning. :)


Coffee always makes the day better :)


Fish Village, Semenyih. Worth the drive, definitely.



Canoodling, Bangsar. Sigh, why do most waiters have shaky hands? :(


My first Royal Rangers camp was when I was 10. Ate camp food cooked with campfire, and a year later, was trained to build a fire with only one match. Killed my first chicken when I was 14 at Survival Camp, although I was crying like crazy whilst slaughtering the poor chicken. Left home for 2 weeks for my first RR mission trip at 15, and become a commander to 12-14-yo girls when I was 18.

I could name many memories I had with this ministry. Because through RR, I did many things I believed I wouldn't be doing. I had the opportunity to work with kids, and although I know I'm not a perfect leader, it has blessed me with a world of humbling learning experiences. Teaching has kept me grounded; made me a better person because I know my actions are being seen as examples by the younger ones. It has opened up my eyes to know that my calling is probably with children. It has blessed me with the fellowship of many great leaders and friends, and Sundays with Rosanne.

Two Sundays ago was my last Sunday at RR. I came by to say goodbye to the girls, and it was harder than I thought. As I was leaving the RR hall, I caught sight of the buntings which portrayed the RR 8 Blue Points; and there I was, at 'Clean', and Rosanne, at 'Courteous'. And standing there looking at the buntings, I felt a pang in my heart.

I think a lot of people are not aware that it is definitely not an easy decision for me. I'm not afraid to admit here that I did get some sense of slight recoil from some people, but I'm not gonna try explaining myself. I just believe that for everyone, there is a different season; now, it's a different season for me. I will still want to work with kids in future, but for now, there are some things I need to work on.

Will definitely miss the girls, the Sundays, the camps and of course, time with Rosanne. But this goodbye is not permanent. :)



Sometimes, I find myself wondering, where the hell did time go? It's already July. Despite the crazy two months, I'm glad there were some time to unwind, to indulge, to cry over a cup of coffee and girly manicures, to love and to let go.

And not to forget, to live.

If the rest of the year is going to be as crazy, ok, bring it on. I might still cry, but I hope I'll remember to take this as my turn to "get to" do these things... before my turn is over. And I hope you do too. :)

Happy rest-of-the-year!





*esther* [ 1:06 AM ]

2 Comments:

  • ET! I checked out your blog and sent you an email, then realised that you had left a comment on my chatbox.

    coincidence much! i miss you too <3

    By Blogger Ronnie, at 1:49 AM  

  • Hi Ro! :)

    All I can say is... I'm SOOO glad to be able to meet up with you tmr! :))) It's been ages!

    <3,ET

    By Blogger *esther*, at 10:46 PM  

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